truth hurts but it is what it is
I’ve learned absolutely everything the harder way. But you know what? That’s okay because the most important lessons in life are learned the harder way. I learned that me caring too much was only a problem when i thought that me caring too much was a good thing. So i’m going to stop caring so much. And me not caring so much is as close as to me not being around. So don’t blame me when things start to change, don’t blame me when i’m not doing the things i used to do. I’m no longer scared and i’m no longer going to cry over these things because I know i’m strong. I used to have my weaknesses used against me, but i’m not letting that shit happen anymore. I’m done fighting and chasing because I feel like i’m the only one who does so. If you want this then you’ll make movements and go after it yourself. I’m done doing my part, i’ve been doing it and I just feel that my good isn’t good enough so that’s it. If you can go through this, then so can I. The fact that you make everything seem so easy for you just makes me realize that some things just aren’t as important and I gotta learn to do the same. And believe me, none of this was/is of intention. It’s just whats gotta be done… it is what it is. I’m done having all this negative vibes run through me. I gotta keep my head held high and stay strong no matter the outcome…
"Where have the times gone, baby it’s all wrong Where are the plans we made for two?"
I feel like ive cried out all my tears inside of me
Because i can be extremely upset but barely even cry anymore. Maybe just a few tear drops here and there but thats about it. Im used to this feeling and emotion of being upset and disapointed now that i dont even care that i am upset or disapointed about something anymore. All shit does is bother me and of course im going to talk and bring up what i feel to try and fix it up but stupid of me for thinking such a thing. Sometimes this feeling just makes me not want to try anymore because i feel like whatever i do just isnt enough… So whats the point? Ive already gave my all… What more can i really do.
My good is never good enough
Its like i put in all my effort and give in my all/all of me and try my best but still isnt good enough. Now that just hurts and makes me feel like complete shit.
Chasing?
No more of that. ‘shit happens’ shit changes too… Things cant always be the same anymore, right?
and to tell you the truth…
i dont give a fuck about what these people in high school think of me because what the fuck and who the fuck are you people going to be to me once we graduate? nothing! so suck it up and quit acting like i should care or something because i really dont!
When you have to try and convince yourself that you dont care only shows that you do because of the fact that you had to convince yourself that you dont in the first place
Hate when i dont get noticed or regognized or appreciated for the shit i do. Big or small. Its like why did i even bother? Why did i even try in the first place only to feel like shit after.
